“But seek ye FIRST the Kingdom of God, and HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS; and all these things shall be added unto you.” Matthew 6:33
With all the things that I have gone through, even at a young age, I knew that pushing myself to a higher level and not settling were traits that made me different. I was not spoiled, I was just used to giving my parents my all in everything I did and receiving rewards for it. They gave me more than enough; materialistic and untangible. And now that God is in my life, I know that EVEN MORE is promised. Everything that I truly desire in my heart will be mine if I am COMPLETELY submitted to His will; His righteousness; His Holiness; His mighty love. He is amazing! I love HIM! And this is why I love and attempt to live by this scripture daily. I want to let go of what Fatima wants and strive to become more like my Lord. God is more and will provide more than enough.
Hola! My name is Fatima Paola Gomez, but everyone calls me Tima G. I love Jesus. I love God. Yes I do, I do. But seeking God first was not always a priority in my life. I was used to playing church since a young age, as I was raised in a Catholic home in a small town in Mexico. God time was only on Sundays when mom and I went to mass. Regardless, I was living life to what the world would consider to be the “fullest”. Good grades, welcomed to teachers’ houses, privilages that no one else had, always at the top of the class, even in kindergarden; in short, I stood out. Then I came to the United States at the age of 9 and everything became blurry. Ha, those days were pretty indescribable. I mean, I knew nothing of the English language, and as you can imagine, my communication skills were sort of horrible. Okay, REALLY horrible. With that, the security and confidence I had as a young girl slowly washed away and I became insecure, leaving me lonely. The enemy had me trapped in the palm of his hands and I was defeated.
Once I learned English, I began to branch out to others attempting to seek acceptance. In school, I found a couple of true friends, in which I love them dearly. And, as you can inagine, the boys came. (I am about to be really real.) So, the first guy I dated was cute, and we all know that when we go through puberty, our hormones are racing like crazy. Well, I was weak spiritually, so temptation came to him and myself, so I let him touch my body inappropriately. Unfortunately, lust then entered my life and I was stuck in this cycle all throughout high school. Also, at home, I tried to please my mom, dad, and sister. Of course, we all have to honor our parents just like God commands us, but I was definitely trying to be that cookie-cut person they wanted me to be, whether it was in academics, serving them, and even with my physical appearance. That defeated me inside. And the situation with my sister was worse. I was always trying to please her demands and this lead her to control my mind as well. I held a lot of unforgiveness and carried that until a couple of months ago, in which I am more than thankful for! Hallelujah!
Dealing with lust, unforgiveness, and insecurities held me down for a long time in my life. I was stuck in a cycle where I did not know my identity and I was definitely trying to find it in my friends or boys. Boys came from right to left, up and down, and when I thought I had the one, he abused me when I allowed him in. First the little flirting game, then the kissx then the touch and until one night I decided to give him my body because I did not want to lose him. I was afraid that he was going to leave me for someone prettier or sweeter than me. Just to make it worse, he left me three weeks after I lost my virginity to him. So the hole of unforgiveness, insecurity, and lust was deeper than ever. But then by the grace of God, I was on myspace (haha I know) and I befriended a young fella, now one of my dear brothers/best friends, B. Todd. He invited me to the church he attended where his mom and dad were the pastors. There, he introduced me to his youth group, that consisted of only about 10 people, with an amazing and unforgettable youth pastor. This was Free Life Youth. I will never forget that day and location because that is where I found the light and where I found what was missing out of my life; Jesus. It was definitely a process of letting go (and still can be) of everything that held me back but ever since, I have gone to higher levels in life, the word, and simply God. He gets the glory. Absolutely does. Without His wonderful and divine orchestration, I would still be bound and trapped in the enemy’s hands.
Can I get a HALLELUJAH????
What I absolutely love the most is innovation. In fashion, technology, design, photography, music; you name it. Anything that captures my attention and shows that someone put effort into constructing something different out of the ordinary yet used the absolute most organized composition gets cool points in my book. If I had to chose, it would be a difficult choice, but fashion speaks to my heart. It’s like a part of my blood. It is in my DNA; innate… No, I really think it is. 0_o I know I am meant to stand out in the world because I don’t look like anyone else, I dress weird yet sophisticated, and most importantly because His light shines everywhere I go. I plan on allowing God to have control of my life and ultimately making changes in the world, including the fashion industry, to affect women, and men as well, in a positive way.
I am a current student at Oklahoma State University (GO POKES) and have declared my major in Design, Housing, and Merchandising, with an option in Apparel Merchandising, along a double minor in Apparel Design & Production and Business Management. You are probably thinking, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? Well, I pretty much study Fashion Marketing and I’m receiving tools and skills to design my own line and run my own business. Be in the look out for those things in the near future. <3
Along with school, I am an employee at the great fashion retailer Forever21. I love my job. I have learned many things that have helped me grow and have worked with a cool staff. Great people, great boss, and we are serving a great God.
Random Fact About Me: I don’t have a favorite color. It changes with the season. Weird, right?
Favorite Fashion Designer(s): Dianne von Furstenberg, Dolce & Gabbana; Alexander Wang, Doncella Versace, Michael Kors, Marc Jacobs, Ralph Lauren, and the oh so great, Karl Lagerfeld. :] (the list was shortened for the limited space….. yea right… )
Preferred Musical Artists: MALI MUSIC, Israel Houghton, Deitrick Haddon, Ryan Leslie, Yuna, M.C., ACG, Lavish, David Famous, and the lovely MissMeloVi
To contact me:
Facebook: Fatima Gomez
I am Fatima Paola Gomez and I am pressing forward. ^_^
God is Love
xo_Tima G <3